tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post4523415708841243573..comments2023-10-21T15:57:40.694+01:00Comments on When I grow up . . . .: The official "It's gone" post.bugerlugs63http://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comBlogger20125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-13541302956709440312012-02-22T22:06:27.885+00:002012-02-22T22:06:27.885+00:00I am. I'll try. Thanks. It is "sinking in...I am. I'll try. Thanks. It is "sinking in" now. It's almost like having to forge a whole new identity overnight. I'm just about catching up with myself.bugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-28819806812923923862012-02-22T12:15:59.953+00:002012-02-22T12:15:59.953+00:00Be happy. And believe in yourself. You are okay....Be happy. And believe in yourself. You are okay. I just know that.Sydhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05642843245634635843noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-59494022624865833102012-02-15T15:08:04.403+00:002012-02-15T15:08:04.403+00:00Hi lovey . . . Yeah it's good to know and &quo...Hi lovey . . . Yeah it's good to know and "see" the place where he was laid to rest . . . I really appreciate all the work you've put into this Lily, you've been so kind and thoughtful. If all my dreams come true and I get a license and motorhome . . . One day . . . I'll pop in and see you! You just never know what can happen when it all starts happening ;-) Take good care and I'll catch up again soon x x xbugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-62820019748455994242012-02-15T12:59:10.985+00:002012-02-15T12:59:10.985+00:00hey matey.... i got a feeling knowing and seeing w...hey matey.... i got a feeling knowing and seeing where ur bro is has ended and bought closure to an event you knew happened but because he was homeless oneday and lost to you, then you had to know he wasnt just lost anymore. hopefully my plaque comes tomorrow and i found out dudley park cemetery was once called islington cemetery so im getting more info thru searches now. ill update u later. xo lillyxo lilly (my meth diaries)https://www.blogger.com/profile/13648835134086783465noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-65969282976877384162012-02-14T21:00:10.742+00:002012-02-14T21:00:10.742+00:00It feels so unreal to me still that I'm wary o...It feels so unreal to me still that I'm wary of even saying it . . . let alone shouting it ;-) <br />I went to the Dr today and didn't even tell her!?<br />I know there are some readers that don't believe me . . . I can't see why they think I would lie though? Maybe they think the whole "story" of an addict getting clean is something I've read and copied!? . . . Oh yeah, Really exciting story!! <br />I mean, yes, to me it actually is exciting . . . But if I was going to make something up I think I could be a little more imaginative.<br />Anyway I know you believe me L and I'm pleased your joining in the "happiness" . . . Thanks xbugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-38407341223598560282012-02-14T17:23:37.500+00:002012-02-14T17:23:37.500+00:00You can shout it from the roof top every day if yo...You can shout it from the roof top every day if you want! This is time to be proud and remind yourself WHY you're proud and how far you've come. As Furtheron said, a day at a time. You got this, and you keep on getting this!! <br /><br />I ,for one, am so very proud and happy for you (and now that it's the afternoon here, I am doing my happy dance in clothes, not my pajamas). Rock on!!Nonehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16208890115089222559noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-52290794104839119782012-02-14T13:35:07.442+00:002012-02-14T13:35:07.442+00:00Ps. Happy Valentine's Day to you and Gary :-)Ps. Happy Valentine's Day to you and Gary :-)bugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-26137081608717780022012-02-14T13:33:55.503+00:002012-02-14T13:33:55.503+00:00Ahhh Thanks . . . Yes as I commented the other day...Ahhh Thanks . . . Yes as I commented the other day to someone . . . "Religion is giving God a bad name" As you say it's nothing to do with religion . . . Simply God and another one of his many wonders.<br />Don't worry about seeming overcomplimentary . . . I can take it ;-) It's good to "see" people who realise just how amazing this really is.<br />Hey yeah . . . When I learn to drive and get my motorhome/campervan . . . Who knows? Stranger things have happened.<br />Happy Valentine's Day to you and Mr. JJ x x xbugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-40694050123453133582012-02-14T12:06:30.397+00:002012-02-14T12:06:30.397+00:00That's exactly how I'm taking it . . . One...That's exactly how I'm taking it . . . One day at a time. I'm trying very hard not to get excited about the future ;-)<br />Wow that's weird that the dreams can go on for so many years. Good to know it's not just me though.<br />Yes, I'll make a conscious effort to stay grateful and remember how this happened.<br />Happy Valentine's Day to you & Mrs Fbugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-35742577745734064302012-02-14T11:51:59.076+00:002012-02-14T11:51:59.076+00:00I see you as a walking, breathing miracle right no...I see you as a walking, breathing miracle right now. I see the true grace of God in this. His grace - not the religious law that your parents tried to impose on you but grace, which I believe is God's greatest gift. I'm not a big fan of religion but I'm a fan of God and you, my friend, are a wonder to behold. I love that you're sharing all of this with us and at the same time you're giving God the glory for all He's doing in your life. YOU are a shining example of the power of prayer. This doesn't mean you won't ever faulter again or feel the pull of temptation but awareness is key and you definetely seem to be tuned in.<br /><br />Okay, I'm done babbling now. I just want you to know that you're an amazing woman and I'm sorry if I seem overcomplimentary but I really think what is happening here is truly amazing and it's difficult for me to hold my tongue. <br /><br />You're in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you will continue to pray since it's obviously working wonders for you. Sure wish we weren't an ocean apart. Would love to take a camping trip with you and your brood and just hang out and get to know you better. Maybe someday....One just never knows what the future may hold.Jennifer https://www.blogger.com/profile/14785197262272189538noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-59377750860317015792012-02-14T11:38:14.254+00:002012-02-14T11:38:14.254+00:00Thanks as always for reading and commenting.
I lo...Thanks as always for reading and commenting. <br />I loved your "Jazz n Jewel" post but I had problems commenting too . . . Beautiful silky cats with such strong personalities.bugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-34657777734250215252012-02-14T11:30:11.324+00:002012-02-14T11:30:11.324+00:00Hi Thanks Lucy . . . I read your post this morning...Hi Thanks Lucy . . . I read your post this morning. i didn't know you were in Adelaide too. I wouldn't be surprised if my Brother had known Bubsy's Grandad. This world seems to be shrinking. <br />Even if things don't seem perfect for Bubsy (in your mind), you're doing good by him. You are his stability and security . . . That counts for so much in a child.bugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-1044685472989350232012-02-14T09:58:41.396+00:002012-02-14T09:58:41.396+00:00It can happen. A day at a time - don't over p...It can happen. A day at a time - don't over plan, don't analyse, the compulsion is gone and just let it be gone. <br /><br />The dream - they happen. I still get odd drinking dreams at one point it was happening a lot - not now. My sponsor who is 20 years sober had one only the other day - he phoned me to talk about it... and he said "When I woke up I was sweating and felt shit - I honestly thought for a few seconds I was hungover and had drunk" - so don't worry you're in good company.<br /><br />Keep praying as it's working for youFurtheronhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11903753972242964410noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-3158761796893498392012-02-14T09:51:21.937+00:002012-02-14T09:51:21.937+00:00That is just amazing. So, so happy for you.
And I...That is just amazing. So, so happy for you.<br />And I would have commented earlier but rotten blogger was having hissy fits again.Elephant's Childhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06650565833097914052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-10072536580613549252012-02-14T08:54:55.681+00:002012-02-14T08:54:55.681+00:00It CAN happen for you... I'll pray for you eve...It CAN happen for you... I'll pray for you even though I don't know you!!Fuck You Lucyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04381369937409655091noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-57476550673985303752012-02-14T07:57:49.805+00:002012-02-14T07:57:49.805+00:00Hi Jeannie,
Absolutely . . . you're right ther...Hi Jeannie,<br />Absolutely . . . you're right there. I won't go thinking I can do this again, as and when I please. I know from 12 years of "wanting to stop" that it was impossible. I know this was special, somehow different. Other "attempts" have left me climbling the walls not being able to stop thinking about the damn stuff . . . This time It's as if I've forgotten about it . . . Except, like I said, when I sleep it finds a way of "sneaking in" . . . Well it can bugger right off! It's lost it's grip. Amen indeed!bugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-47927426593114535232012-02-14T03:55:58.310+00:002012-02-14T03:55:58.310+00:00You know what? I quit smoking the same way. I'...You know what? I quit smoking the same way. I'd tried before, and failed and then - I did say one prayer - and that was it.<br /><br />I did have dreams where I would find myself smoking, and then realize I'd quit and have that sinking feeling that I'd ruined everything.<br /><br />It's just your mind figuring it out that it's really real.<br /><br />Just don't ever think that, because it was "easy" that you can start and stop whenever you feel like it. My husband had an "easy" quit for smoking too then, after 6 months, was out with a friend who smoked like a chimney, took a cigarette, and was back on them again for a few years. It was extremely hard for him to quit the next time - and he still has the desire. He actually bought e-cigarettes and sucks on them - but not with nicotine in them - because he's still tempted and it's been at least 15 years now.<br /><br />I believe you, but agree that it's pretty amazing that after all your agonizing beforehand, that you are simply clean. It really is like a miracle. Amen.Jeanniehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15320507412459242451noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-30958233414165341432012-02-14T01:33:55.278+00:002012-02-14T01:33:55.278+00:00Ps . . . Those science fairs certainly do sound li...Ps . . . Those science fairs certainly do sound like parent abuse. I'd never heard of them but Yes I'm all for banning them! ;-)<br />You did well to "keep your hands off". <br />Like when I "help" Hamper (4) to make a card for someone . . . Let ME just show you where to put that glitter . . . And that bit goes THERE! . . NO! I said THERE!! :-Obugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-7929198306852245382012-02-14T01:25:32.004+00:002012-02-14T01:25:32.004+00:00Ok you've set me off now . . . I'm glad yo...Ok you've set me off now . . . I'm glad you understand. It's almost a fear of being happy :-/ But I will be . . . One day . . . Soon!!! Thanks Annette xbugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-64187969560748291882012-02-14T01:08:41.728+00:002012-02-14T01:08:41.728+00:00I am crying. I can hear so much of my daughter in ...I am crying. I can hear so much of my daughter in what you are posting. The fear of using, the fear of not using, the hope, the idea that maybe this is "it." Miracles happen and I think this is one that has been given to you. Bless your heart. I am SO happy reading this and I am praying for you. So so happy!Annettehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18326425173333184401noreply@blogger.com