tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post6280852949214655866..comments2023-10-21T15:57:40.694+01:00Comments on When I grow up . . . .: Silverhip (part two)bugerlugs63http://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comBlogger17125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-70678336936673726762012-03-19T13:13:28.673+00:002012-03-19T13:13:28.673+00:00Ahhh, crazy youth. I don't think that I thoug...Ahhh, crazy youth. I don't think that I thought about much except women when I was a teenager--well, I did study. But then there were the fantasies. It's just part of the stages in life. We go through some crazy times. Great story.Sydhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05642843245634635843noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-22968451772566023372012-03-18T22:58:39.380+00:002012-03-18T22:58:39.380+00:00What a spectacular story teller you are. You know ...What a spectacular story teller you are. You know just where to leave us hanging so that we can't wait for the next chapter!Annettehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18326425173333184401noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-44065981011912209222012-03-16T09:15:22.678+00:002012-03-16T09:15:22.678+00:00Hey Jeannie I lost you in the replies. I don't...Hey Jeannie I lost you in the replies. I don't think Silverhip played off me in any way . . he was far too kind. His friends just kind of tolerated me for his benefit. But yes I definitely needed to move on . . . and on . .bugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-28778655580865224042012-03-16T09:03:58.619+00:002012-03-16T09:03:58.619+00:00Thanks for your reply. I might try that gratitude...Thanks for your reply. I might try that gratitude list. I would try NA but the nearest one is in the city and I have no transport. I suppose I could try it on my own. It's always good to hear from people like you who are so far down the line. Thanksbugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-2857864425316218852012-03-16T08:55:51.418+00:002012-03-16T08:55:51.418+00:00Hi Lou, Yes down with the parent bashing I say!
H...Hi Lou, Yes down with the parent bashing I say! <br />He was a nice guy, is a nice guy. He used to come to me in France for holidays with his wife. She is far more functional that I could ever have been (and middle class ;-)<br />I wasn't ready to settle . . . as I go on with the story I might find I was never ready to settle. Until I was alone.<br />Thanks for reading and commenting Lou. I'm so happy for Andrew.bugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-68193113486075125322012-03-16T08:44:57.246+00:002012-03-16T08:44:57.246+00:00Hi Karl. Hamper G has my laptop, so I'm on my ...Hi Karl. Hamper G has my laptop, so I'm on my son's and somehow I've reduced the size of everything and have no idea how to get it back. I can barely see what I'm writing so scuse mistakes. I think now I've almost got to 50 I've earned the right to be me . . just me. Not even who I think I am, just who I am. I'm glad you're liking the archives. Thanks Bugerlugs xbugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-15367404538758193232012-03-15T21:59:01.036+00:002012-03-15T21:59:01.036+00:00There is no accounting for the things we do when y...There is no accounting for the things we do when young. I don't know anyone who thought they were "alright" or even "OK" when they were young. <br /><br />I love you could see your parents as the products of their own childhoods and problems. All the parent bashing on the blogs makes me crazy, although I do admit to my own occasionally:(<br /><br />The guy seems nice...too nice. You too would not have been happy, I think, over the long haul.<br /><br />Thanks for sharing your story.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-32956745131932763792012-03-15T19:37:57.247+00:002012-03-15T19:37:57.247+00:00Hiya,
Great post, excellent writing, very honest &...Hiya,<br />Great post, excellent writing, very honest & straight from the heart.<br />I think that to an extent we are all guilty of playing up to the ideas that we think other people have about us, it goes something like this, " I am, who I think, you think I am " or you can turn it around " You are, who you think, I think you are " ha LOL<br />This theory even has a name which is escaping me at the moment, I thought I'd throw it in because you said you weren't up to thinking much today,(I think way too much for my own good)There must be a cruel streak in me somewhere.<br /><br />I'm loving your recollections & am so pleased you are doing so well.<br /> Love & Respect.....xKarlkarlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09348192514955706097noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-80918481042312806022012-03-15T18:50:43.746+00:002012-03-15T18:50:43.746+00:00Hi . . . I wish! I've probably got enough mate...Hi . . . I wish! I've probably got enough material but I think I'd need to polish up my grammar. It's like drawing, some days it flows other days I sit and stare at the keyboard/paper.<br />Thanks for reading and commenting. I'm enjoying your blog. Take care.bugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-9599554458578835342012-03-15T16:40:33.349+00:002012-03-15T16:40:33.349+00:00I can't wait for the next installment. You sh...I can't wait for the next installment. You should really put this in book form...there's a budding author in you dying to get out (so you might as well get paid to do it!).SoberMomWriteshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04845259535764391849noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-68814583737005364182012-03-15T13:26:09.774+00:002012-03-15T13:26:09.774+00:00It sounds to me that they played off your ignoranc...It sounds to me that they played off your ignorance - loving that you thought they were all that. I'm glad for your sake that you broke away - as much as they may have helped you in some respects, you would have still felt like less than they were.Jeanniehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15320507412459242451noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-57465469948910158502012-03-15T13:06:43.666+00:002012-03-15T13:06:43.666+00:00Screwed up...
OK excuse AA speak but "no def...Screwed up...<br /><br />OK excuse AA speak but "no defence against the first drink" however you get finally to a habit where you get that obsession out of your head.<br /><br />It took me about 9 months. I was writing a daily gratitude list on the advice of another AA - he suggested at the top I always write "Haven't had a drink today" then carry on with other things however big or small I was grateful that day...<br /><br />So this day about 9 months in I write that at the top and go on down then I think - "Hold on"... I went back crossed that out and wrote... "Haven't thought about wanting a drink today" I underlined it until the paper was tearing. That was a major moment for me. I can't and won't say ever minute of every hour of every day has been like that since then but it has got less and less and less- these days the thoughts about taking a drink are very rare and often a bit alien and odd and I let them drift out my head I don't have to tackle and battle the obsession like I did in those early days.Furtheronhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11903753972242964410noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-62146462172309451582012-03-15T13:01:14.903+00:002012-03-15T13:01:14.903+00:00This comment has been removed by the author.Furtheronhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11903753972242964410noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-5272553261015037292012-03-15T10:00:51.708+00:002012-03-15T10:00:51.708+00:00I'm not sure when I stopped trying to be somet...I'm not sure when I stopped trying to be something else . . . I'm sure I'll find out as I carry on writing my story.<br />Yes, the memories from back then are clear as day . . . They may become a bit murky when I reach 2000. Some recent stuff is clear, a bit too clear for comfort . . . but other things the kids remind me of I really can't remember :-/<br />I will try and update today as I've been struggling a bit. No, I haven't gone back to the gear but it has taken up way too much head space in the last few days. I've had to fight it and that worries me incase one day I don't have much "fight" in me.<br />Thanks for reading and commenting.bugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-87988472260590089532012-03-15T09:51:22.449+00:002012-03-15T09:51:22.449+00:00Thanks EC I always look forward to your comments.
...Thanks EC I always look forward to your comments.<br />I wonder why it takes us so long to get a bit of self-belief . . . Well, some of us.<br />I hope my kids grow up feeling good about themselves. I wonder how much is nature, how much nurture. <br />Ooo I think I better have my second coffee before I dwell on that one ;-)<br />The sun is breaking through, the bag of grass seed is beckoning.bugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-80717933799955116732012-03-15T09:22:47.700+00:002012-03-15T09:22:47.700+00:00No knowing who we are... I'm still guilty of t...No knowing who we are... I'm still guilty of that - or at least playing the being what we think others think we ought to be... I'm definitely still guilty on that charge. I did a post on the things people regret when they die http://guitarsandlife.blogspot.com/2012/02/top-five-things-people-regret-when-they.html there is a book I'm not sure really I want to read but am intrigued... anyway there at number 1 (TOTP music and Jimmy Saville impersonation at the ready) "Yes folks still at numero ono it is - I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me." Holy Crap! Not only am I not unique in thinking this it is (from the research behind this anyway) the thing most people regret! Still I don't learn!<br /><br />fantastic recollections btw - I struggle to remember last Tuesday let alone the 80s and there is a very very large chunk of the late 90s that appear to have never really happened to me at all!Furtheronhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11903753972242964410noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6593768356444181863.post-81947664184957941142012-03-15T04:44:03.043+00:002012-03-15T04:44:03.043+00:00You write like a dream. I am horrified that you t...You write like a dream. I am horrified that you thought you were 'lesser' than anyone. But totally understanding. I was in my thirties before I realised I was not stupid. Not very anyway.<br />It seems to be a common thing for so many of us - it is much easier to believe a bad thing about ourselves (regardless of who said it, or even if it was said at all) than it is to accept a compliment.<br />Sigh.Elephant's Childhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06650565833097914052noreply@blogger.com