Wednesday, 22 August 2012

Thankyou all!! And . . . Case closed!!!

Ok, I'll try and keep this brief. Firstly because I'm exhausted (imagining the worst all day is tiring!) and secondly, it has sapped more than enough energy from me and I we can now move on.

I want to thank you ALL for your comments this morning, I read them over and over for reassurance and positive thinking and because it helps me to feel such caring and warmth from you.
I would love to answer them all individually, as per usual, but I want to tell you all the outcome. I would need to write the same thing over to all of you and I really am so tired.

I called my drugs worker at 8am and left a message asking her to call me back, which she did. She assured me there was NO new law or policy whereby they are obliged to report users with children to Social Services. They have always had the same policy; "A duty of care"; report if you feel the children are at risk, which, she added, is why I have never been reported to Social Services by any Doctor, drugs worker, Police worker or other professional that has known me in twelve years of using.

Eventually at 4pm a lady phoned me from Social Services. She said I had been referred by my GP as there was a concern that "after many years (!?) of only using methadone (!) I had gone back to using Heroin and the Doctor felt obliged to report the changes . . .

I won't bore you with the whole conversation. The GP had got the story completely wrong. I told the social worker the truth, the whole truth and . . . yes, you know the rest. I didn't have to tell her, but that's me, and I felt she should know just how wrong the Doctor was. Obviously she can check the details on my medical records or with my drugs worker if she doubts my story (sanity) . . . but I don't think she does. I mean why would I lie to say; "I've never had any long periods of only using methadone. I've pretty much used for twelve years solid and only had numerous 4-6 day clean sessions since February this year . . ." 
". . . But also, that in twelve years of using and dealing with all kinds of professionals who have met the children and been to my home, I had never yet had a referral to Social Services".

I told her of my near-recovery and the recent events in Wales which had led to this anxiety and depression, well, you all know the whole story as it is, and that's exactly what I told her . . . I spoke for twenty minutes almost non stop and told her of the plans I had made to deal with the anxiety, phobia and depression and to get back to where I was pre-Wales.

She thanked me for my honesty and said it was quite clear that I was an intelligent (!), responsible and capable mother and that I was obviously doing everything possible to work my way through a difficult time . . . She was sorry that I had been caused further anxiety by this referral and as far as she was concerned the case was closed!! CLOSED!! Over. Filed and Finished.

I do feel better. Tired, but so much better.
I'm sorry I caused you concern and that I haven't replied to each individual comment . . . You all know how OCD I am about that one ;-)

I really can't thank you all enough for your support, your reassurance and encouragement. For your love and prayers. Also for believing in me.  I honestly appreciate every single word that you took the time to write. I know I might have said this before but I consider you to be my true friends. That may well sound crazy . . . That's OK.

A quick spellcheck and I'm off to bed. I've rushed this post to let you know the outcome, so it might be a bit disconnected and repetitive . . . It doesn't matter.

I will sleep tonight.

Love and peace and a huge thanks to you all x

PS. I feel it is my "Duty of care" to give this GP some advice . . . I will, of course, keep you updated on this.

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  1. Great news. Didn't have time to comment on the last one but was thinking of you lots after I read it. You are doing so well .. your honesty is your so great, and your strength will win the day for you, I know it will. xxxx

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    1. Thanks Mrs D. I do feel much better. The truth is all I've got and I'm glad about that. Hopefully, some strength will get me back on track now. Love sent to you x

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  2. OMG!!!! I am so happy for you!! To be *seen* and *heard* by this person and recognized as the good and loving mama that you are, a human being struggling but still putting forth a herculean effort to right things in her world....bless her heart for listening and not judging! Really, I am just so so happy for you. ((((HUG))))

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    1. Thanks Annette, and thanks again for yesterday. She sounded quite old and had an "old" name, which I to took to be a good thing (experience) . . . And she listened. Prayers were answered for sure.
      It served one purpose; putting some perspective on my other fear (phobia).
      Back to a bit of "normality" now ;-) and thanks for the laugh this morning on your Blog. Much love to you x

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  3. I still want to come over and kick her ass...or at least give her a piece of my mind. But I'm pretty sure you will...um...take care of that sufficiently.

    Sleep well my friend. You deserve it.

    Sherry

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    1. O I will Sherry, I'm already writing my list for the next visit . . .
      Top of the list, question one "Are you listening, I mean really listening?"
      I did sleep well, thanks and thanks for yesterdays advice and concern. Love sent to you Sherry x

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  4. Yahoo!!
    Kiwigirl xxx

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    1. Hooli Hooli Hoola!! Yeah yeah yeah!!x x x

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  5. I'm so glad to hear this good news ! My heart went out to you yesterday.
    Though I do think it's sad that social workers get such a bad press. They're about as popular as traffic wardens yet their job of protecting vulnerable children is one of the most important in the country.

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    1. You're right karl, their job is very important and of course mistakes are made. It would imagine it's extremely difficult to get it right. People (especially addicts) are so good at deceiving and covering their wrong doings . . . A lot of it is bad press and scare-mongering. But to any Mother, knowing that some other human has the the right to remove your kids (yes, after meetings, but closed, secret meetings)is absolutely terrifying.
      Anyway, I'm so glad it's over and finished. Hope all is well with you mate x

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  6. Oh sweetheart. Tears of happiness from here. If you hear of a small flood in Canberra, Australia know that you caused it. I am so, so happy to hear that sanity rules. I am however a bit peeved at the stupidity of that doctor just the same...

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    1. O big hugs!! . . . I am a tad worried (again), as I missed an "unknown" call this afternoon whilst hanging out the washing. SS was an "unknown" call and it was at the same time as yesterday . . . I'm praying it's not her, but I have a feeling it might be. Talk about roller-coaster . . . All I can do is wait.
      Bless your heart. Much love and many thanks to you x
      And yes, I will be having a chat with that doctor, for sure.

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  7. Terrific news. :-D

    Firstly another example of honesty being the best policy. Also you are an intelligent responsible and caring mother. Believe that! Huge hugs to you been a great day so far apart from major work muck up but that is unimportant. Lol :-D

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    1. Hi Furtheron Thanks;-)
      I'm pretty sure I have missed a call form Social Services this afternoon . . . Which has sent my fragile mind into overdrive (again!) . . . I keep going over what I said and wondering has she suddenly picked up on something that she didn't "hear" at the time . . . I dare say it's all recorded and played back to a few others . . . O well, I can only wait and see.
      I coulda done with a litle longer with peace of mind though. Thanks for all your support Furtheron x

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  8. Thank God it's all turned out OK :-)

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    1. Hmmmmm . . . I'm beginning to wonder Gledwood. It appears they called me back this afternoon, and I missed the call . . . Time will tell.
      I checked out the effects of mixing Prozac with Methadone as I've felt very drowsy for three days. I discovered that it's not exactly recommended . . . But not as dangerous as mixing Seroquel with Methadone, did you know this?
      I hope you're well x

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  9. this is me btw im just not signed in

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    1. Yay! indeed Kim ;-)
      Hoping you are well and rested x

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  11. That is wonderful news...whew! You love your children so very much. Noone would ever doubt that...be well, be happy and laugh sometimes too when you can..wonderful therapy, a case of the giggles. xoxo

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    1. Thanks Lori, I was enjoying this afternoon and beginning to laugh again until I realised they (SS) had called me back . . . Now, I'm wondering why all over again.
      The last two weeks have been a real roller-coaster ride . . . But this too shall pass (eventually)

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    2. Hey Lori, I hadn't finished there. Yes, I will try and distract myself and find something to laugh about ;-) Good advice, thanks x

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  12. I am so happy for you, Lovey!! I wanted to swing by before I headed out the door to get my meds. I'm so relieved it all turned out well and it resolved itself so quickly! Doing a happy dance for you! xoxoxo

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    1. O Lovey, buggeration! I wish I had of replied to all these comments before I got the next call. I missed the call, hanging washing out . . . So now my brain is on overtime (I'm sure you can relate to that one), wondering why they have phoned me again . . . Up and down and round and round.
      But continue with your happy dance and I'll update as soon as I've spoken to them, Thanks for being here Lovey x x

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  13. I absolutely KNEW that this wouldn't go very far. Some people are so quick to "inform" authorities (obviously, that doctor has anxiety issues of her own - or is such a goodie two shoes that she has no clue that there are functioning addicts out there - my own doctor is a little crazed that way - when I wanted to use marijuana, she preferred to prescribe opiates as though they were less addictive hahahaha)

    I'm so happy it is over and done with so you can relax somewhat.

    That is some excellent news.

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    1. Ah well . . . Jeannie, now I'm not so sure that it's over as they called me today but I missed the call. Hopefully it's something and nothing but I would like that confirmed . . . Like, Now!
      She is definitely a goodie two shoes, she looks about 17, pregnant for the frist time . . . No doubt with intentions of being the world's best Mother! . . And is horrified that I could "use" under the same roof as my kids.
      And yet, as you say, they are quick enough to prescribe opiates . . . Fools.
      I will update as soon as they call me tomorrow. Sod's law that I was outside when they phoned me.
      Thanks for being here Jeannie, I hope you're feeling better x

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  14. This is wonderful news!
    But still you went throuh Hell.Some one gets a degree and becomes power hungry and manipulative.I would stay away from that quack.
    Of course your exhausted from such a shock.You get some well earned restHuny Buny.xoxxXOXO

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    1. Hi Bev, I will be changing my GP for sure, after one last visit to give her some "advice" . . . Though at the moment, I'm not sure it's over, as I missed a call from them today. So, back on the roller coaster for another ride. It is, indeed, exhausting.
      I will update as soon as I know why they want to speak to me again. Thanks for your kind words Bev, both on your Blog and over here x x

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  15. So glad that's settled. Pehaps you could ask your drug worker to contact the GP and explain a few things to her.

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    1. Twisted Scottish Bastard. I will be doing just that. Also I will go to her (GP) one last time with some advice.
      I hope it's settled, it seems they want to talk to me again as I missed a phone call today from them . . . Hey ho, off we go again; whys? and what ifs?
      Thanks for being here x

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