Today's been good. I saw my "drugs worker", got my methadone reduced to 50ml, told her my N/A news and then went to the park with Hamper G. All good, normal stuff.
I've had no desire to use today . . . quite the opposite. I did my weights, increased my skipping, decreased my fat and sugar intake . . . I could be hungry but I can usually cope with that. Maybe I'll go and get a healthy snack and try again. Then I can rule that one out.
Hamper G was using the webcam in the kitchen a few days ago to "film" herself
That's OK, I've recovered from the initial shock and I'm dealing with it. I'm dealing with a lot these days. Maybe I'm just tired. That would explain . . . I was going to say my irritability . . . but I feel a bit calmer now.
I'm gonna write my N/A post in the morning . . . I know I said that last night but it was such a lovely, warming experience of truth and hope . . . I don't feel that I could do it justice whilst I'm tired and ratty, albeit a bit less ratty than when I started. So that's good.
I've just gottta say, before I go, that I'm proper blessed to have you all on board. I never imagined when I started this blog that I'd feel so much trust and understanding from and towards people that I'd never met. Amazing. Now I'm off to bed before that sodding hamster wakes up and gets me running around for his amusement. No chance.
I knew I should've left the editing . . . guess who just darted across the room? And we're not talking a normal "scurrying" type of hamster here . . . They're Roborovski dwarf hamsters, renowned for their speed . . . Hey, he'll slow down when he gets hungry ;-) Goodnight x
I almost deleted the first paragraph then, as I feel much calmer now. But that's progress so I'll leave it. Or maybe it was hunger and the grapes helped.