Just a quickie to say Geekster finally got the scanner up and running. He gave me a lesson in how to use it then said "Ok, go pull a photo out and I'll watch you scan it . . . to make sure you understand" :-) . . . This was a lucky dip from hundreds of pictures. On holiday in Spain. Stropster having fun and Geekster no doubt having a "Eureka" moment or similar . . . He's such a Geekster. Bless him. So I proved myself by scanning the photo. He tried to hide his surprise. I made pancakes to thank him . . . Yes with Nutella.
I walked into the back garden on Saturday afternoon and decided it was time to start some work . . . Three hours of raking later I knew I'd gone too far. Really, I knew after two hours but I had to be absolutely sure . . . I was absolutely sure on Sunday when I tried to bend my back. It's a good start though.
I had to fight the urge to score tonight. I'm not sure why . . . Apart from stress, back-ache and tiredness. Hamper G would not settle and has only just gone to sleep at 10pm, that really does annoy me. She is constantly with me from 7am and by 7pm, quite frankly, I've had enough. She was over-tired and gripe, gripe, griping . . . It was seriously grating on me . . . testing my nerves. I must say I came very close. I knew it would kill the back ache and un-knot my stomach. I tried to think further ahead . . . I would wake up feeling shit tomorrow . . . Not just physically but I'd be pissed off with myself . . . Also I would worry that any future stress would cause the same reaction. That could be a daily occurance.
So I'm grinding my teeth very slightly . . . My legs are aching and I'm
I didn't expect every day to be easy.
The weather is about to improve. Thursday till Sunday is gonna be warm and sunny . . . Gardening weather.
She's awake and griping again, after precisely one hour of quiet. Barely time to wind down. All I can think is thank fuck it's too late now. For real. Patience and strength please . . . Now? . . .??