Bloody Hell 49!? . . . Where did that come from?. . . Or more to the point how did I get here? That is a question that I'm gonna start to answer very soon. I've decided that alongside the original purpose of this blog - To work towards, begin to make and keep track of some changes in the next year and beyond - I'm also gonna write about the past. I've wanted to do this for a long time now and for various reasons but I'm never sure where to start . . . I don't want to write it in any particular order other than writing about an event, a person or a place that takes my fancy at the time . . . So that's how it will be. I hope that it can make sense that way.
Whenever I'm trying to recall at what point a certain event took place I tend to relate it to who I was with at the time . . . Or if it was after the kids were born, then how old they were. As I said in my profile, until 5 years ago I was always in a relationship. The most significant of these lasted between one and five years, although there has been the odd one night, one week, one month romance that has left an impression.
Okay so it doesn't take a mathematical genius to work out that there have been many "significant" others who are included in the story of my life . . . So with no particular order, various locations and so many "others" . . . I may need to do a kind of index/glossary whatever it's called, if for no other reason than to remind myself of where, who, what, when and how the hell I got here?
Yes I will do that . . . I'm not sure how you set up something on separate page with a link at the top of this page . . . but I will find out soon. Soon, but not now as I'm falling asleep.
I'm gonna make an effort to do as little as possible tomorrow . . . And until then have a deep, undisturbed, sweet and dreamless sleep. Goodnight all.
Happy Birthday and happy deep, dreamless sleep. That would be such a treat.
ReplyDeleteI am looking forward to your next posts when and as you put them up.
Thanks . . . I managed a nice lie in this morning. Eldest Lad looked after Hamper G . . . AND brought me coffee in bed . . . Made with milk!! Luxury :-)
DeleteHAPPY BIRTHDAY! I am hoping this is a very special year for you. For me, 49 was a year to tie up some lose ends in my life and get ready for a new decade of life at 50. It sounds like you are already doing that.
ReplyDeleteI'm looking forward to your "index" :)
Thanks :-) Yes I'm feeling like it will be a special year. I'm looking forward to my index too . . . Strangely enough I have a very good memory . . for some things ;-)
Deleteoooh happy birthday to you! And i just read your last post about a rehab,i would grab it with both hands if the kids are happy about it and it seems that all is taken care off,lucky thing,very timely..!Hope you have a blissful day,much love xxxxxx
ReplyDeleteHi lovey . . I will pop over to FB later, I've not checked in there for a while.
DeleteI think Hamper G will struggle a bit . . . but it would be worth it. I'll have to wait until she is settled in school first. It's the only chance I'm gonna get to be "ill" in peace. And if I don't do it, then get ill with my lungs again . . . I could well be in hospital for more than ten days. It certainly feels like the right time . . . Time will tell. I'll be over to msg soon. Much love to all x x x
Happy Birthday!! Can't wait to hear about your journeys!
ReplyDeleteThanks L, Today has been good so far :-)
DeleteHappy Birthday my dear!
ReplyDeleteThanks Annette :-)
DeleteSounds like it will be an interesting adventure. I wonder sometimes, what I missed out on being with the same guy for so long. I've never really had my heart broken - and while to most, that might be a good thing, I think it might have made me less sympathetic to people. I've lost a certain understanding. I feel like I've never really risked much. Emotionally. So, while you may not share the heartbreaks, it will be nice to hear about the good things you had going with people - and where it took you.
ReplyDeleteYes it's strange really . . . I'm not sure why I could never stay. I never had anyone leave me but sometimes it broke my heart to leave them (sometimes it didn't). . . So plenty of emotional turmoil and hurting others I suppose . . . I basically never trusted anyone, because I couldn't trust myself. All bar one were very loyal . . . and guess who I kept going back to? (until I had kids) Yep you guessed ;-) Seriously though, looking back I really wonder what was going on in my head. If anything.
DeleteOh yeah! Happy Birthday!
ReplyDeleteCheers! ;-)
DeleteHappy birthday
ReplyDeleteThanks! . . . I'm posting this at 00.13 Sunday night . . but I bet it won't say that. How can it get the time wrong when that's the time my laptop is showing?
DeleteLet's post and see . . .
See? 04.14?!?
DeleteWhat's that about . . Where in the world am I?
I met Mrs F when I was 18 and she was 16 - 28th Feb 1981 - I remember dates, it's a sadness really :-)
ReplyDeleteBeen a long long time as they say... like Jeannie I wonder if or how much I missed out on... but in the end I think this was the best thing
Wow . . . Thats is a long long time. That's good. I doubt you missed out on anything. Quite the opposite. I just kept repeating "those first few years" over and over again with different people . . never getting past that into a deeper understanding of each other and feeling that I could stay. I thought I loved them at the time . . . I'm still not sure. Maybe when I go a delving I will discover something?
ReplyDeleteHappy Every New Day Of Your Life, darling...
DeleteAs I already said, I'm completely impressed by how your life looks to be "condensed". One month of your life is probably my 20 years worth/weight. I truly appreciate this kinda "flexibility", because it makes person open for all high-and low tides of Life, not to miss anything...
Love&Thoughts
Hi Nikita,
DeleteGood to "see" you again. I've only just seen your comment . . . four days later. Sometimes I forget to check back to older posts.
I did check your blog but unfortunately it was in a language that I don't understand . . . I would love to read it. I'm pleased you are still reading mine. Take good care x
Happy Birthday, LoverHugs! I have a present for you. I just added a "characters" page on my blog, and I will send you the HTML code that I used to create the list of names that are clickable. (It works in IE, but I've been having trouble in Firefox.) It took me several hours to figure it out and reseach it so hopefully this will save you some time. All you will have to do is create a new page and then replace the names of my people and the descriptions with your people. I worked on my page in draft format for a while until it was ready for publication. I would love to read your descriptions of your kiddos and lovers :-)
ReplyDeleteI'll try to find your email address on your blog somewhere, but if you don't hear from me in a couple of days, hmu @ susiekt369@gmail.com
Best wishes to you for a wonderful birthday.
Yes you're right I did miss this comment . . . I only found it through your more recent one, Thanks.
DeleteBlimey this sounds very complex for me . . . all this working in code. My computer knowledge is very limited. No wonder it took you several hours. I might try to copy that, then replace the names . . . I'll go and have a look first.
Otherwise I had a "simple" idea. That is to just do a post which is basically "my list" of years/places/people that can be referred back to in times of confusion ;-)
Either way, Thanks so much for thinking of me and allowing me to share your hard work by sending me the code . . . What a wonderful present. I love the "Loverhugs" nickname too ;-)
Thanks again for reading and commenting. Take good care. x
I am sorry that I missed your birthday! No excuses. I have been bad about commenting on blogs. Hope that you had a good one. You are few years younger than me. But 49 isn't bad. At least we got this far.
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