This is probably the only free ten minutes I will get today . . . I'm not really awake enough to think of anything to write. I have so much to do today . . . Finish Criggy room, off to town to buy hooks to put rope light up and another extension lead . . . more lights. More ordering on-line. Juggling funds all over the place to try and cover all this extravagance. If they all get everything they asked for it will be a minor miracle. I'm gonna post this and get on. Something worth writing about should happen today . . . ? Snow?
What a boring post. Yawn. Must be methadone time . . .
(hopefully) this will follow some major changes that I want,need & intend to make during the next 16 mnths of my life.I will be 50 in 16 months and hope & pray I can make some changes by then. I dont have much confidence in the outcome of this which is not a brilliant start, but it is a start. . I'm bringing up 3 children alone, Sometimes I think I'm doing it well . . .other times not so well. Always I think in the back of my mind it will be different, better . . .when I grow up.
Do you get periodic severe insomnia? With a feeling like you've been doing coke when you haven't (half hyper half tired)? I do. I was just wondering if I was the only one.
ReplyDeleteWhen you get depressed, do you oversleep, undersleep, or sleep all over the place? I oversleep and usually sleep most afternoons as well as all night. I'm glad I sleep when depressed. What is there to be awake about.
I hope you're OK I've got to run now and get fags.
Gledwood,
ReplyDeleteThe only time I have any problem going to sleep is if I've slept in the day (very rare) or if there is a bag in the house screaming at me!
I'm usually way tired and stoned by the time my head hits the pillow/laptop/floor.
When I get depressed fortunately it's never for long as I have too many distractions/obligations = kids to "get into" it . . . But pre-kids, yes I used to sleep, sleep, sleep through it. I think that probably made it worse as I never woke up feeling better.
If I get "depressed" now I tend to find doing something (preferably outside) can change my mood. Even though at the time I swear it wont ;-)
I thought of you today . . . At my local shop, in an effort to save plastic bags, there is a huge notice on the till . . . "Do you really need a bag?" (well I didn't till you mentioned it!) . . . No idea why it made me think of you?
Take care with love as always x
Yeah, sometimes it is hard to have any time for yourself!
ReplyDeleteOBLIGATIONS, I find anymore come first, and an obligation to one's self is very important. Your children, unconditional LOVE, ALWAYS!!
As for Christmas, I have snow this year, and have been able to be around the snow for 13 years now.
Where I am from Phoenix, Arizona USA, it doesn't snow. I take that back, I think it maybe snowed 3 or 4 times during my 55 yrs. of living in the "valley of the Sun"
Well, we moved up here to Overgaard,AZ. and it is COLD.
After reading Gledwood's comment, I got depresssed more.
B.TW. I LOVE the name of YOUR Blog>
Take care of YOU
Blessings
Love,
Maureen